Tamara’s Story

I am 38 years old and have been suffering with depression for 19 years and self injury violence for 14 years. I am one that has seen both sides of someone with a mental illness; not only did my grandmother have bipolar disorder, but my mother also has bipolar disorder. I never thought I needed to see a professional to help me with my "problem" I always thought just have my primary care physician prescribe me with some medication and I will be fine. I was so wrong in that mindset.   I had suicidal thoughts and a game plan early this year so I was sent to a clinic to help me get back on track. I have realized that medications alone can not help and I needed someone who is more educated in mental illness disorders to regulate my medications.   

I am telling my story today because I am tired of people saying "just snap out of it" or "why are you so lazy ".  I can't snap out of it and I am not lazy; I just have those days I dont want or dont feel like doing anything because I feel "why bother".  I am feeling better now but still have a long way to go; I know with a lot of support, understanding, and faith I will not be defeated by my depression.  I want my daughter to have her mother all her life and not just a memory of her.  She keeps me motivated as well as my husband.  I now feel I belong and that I am not alone.